The title says it all - I took the Femara CD2-6, I monitored OV with the CBFM and OPKs, we DTD on all my fertile days, and I started progesterone 7DPO, but still no positive test!
In fact this cycle has knocked me for six because I tested early (a pregnant friend gave me some HTPs that she no longer needs) and on 12DPO I got the faintest line that gave us a glimmer of hope. I didn't feel pregnant and my usual spotting started but still surely you can't get a line if no HCG is present? So the next day I used two different tests and the line was no darker, in fact there was no line at all!!! Just cruel!
Here is the line at 12DPO (unless you are a TTCer you probably won't be able to see it and so I've marked it's whereabouts with red arrows but also it is difficult to see on a computer screen):
So I probably shouldn't write this update on CD1 when my emotions are running high thanks to AF but I figured that I should get some stuff off my chest and let people read how I really feel sometimes.
So I'm nearly 40 and still not a Mum or even pregnant - I don't want to hear "still plenty of time left". I don't feel old but fertility-wise I'm told I am old. Hubby is 5 years younger than me and has perfect swimmers, and men can father babies up to quite a ripe old age - am I making him feel old and that time is running out for him too?
Lots of people around me are pregnant or have recently had babies and although I am happy for them and I love babies I'm JEALOUS! There, I've admitted it - I can't help it!
I could could scream with frustration because there is nothing more I can do to help our situation or to speed up the process.
So I'm nearly 40 and still not a Mum or even pregnant - I don't want to hear "still plenty of time left". I don't feel old but fertility-wise I'm told I am old. Hubby is 5 years younger than me and has perfect swimmers, and men can father babies up to quite a ripe old age - am I making him feel old and that time is running out for him too?
Lots of people around me are pregnant or have recently had babies and although I am happy for them and I love babies I'm JEALOUS! There, I've admitted it - I can't help it!
I could could scream with frustration because there is nothing more I can do to help our situation or to speed up the process.
Most of all I feel that there is no one that fully understands what I am going through. I have a great support network and I know that I am loved but there is no one in the same boat as me. I'm not close to anyone in real life or online who is in a very similar situation who I can talk to. Someone who has tried for as long as we have, who has suffered losses, who has had operations and lots of treatments, and who is my age and so understands the added pressure and very real fact that it may never happen.
Don't get me wrong I'm very far from giving up but I could really do with a ray of hope!
Don't get me wrong I'm very far from giving up but I could really do with a ray of hope!
I am in the same situations.... I am 40, my hubby of 10 years is 35, I have 8 miscarriages/ chemical pregnancies that all began with the brown spotting at around 5 weeks. I have elevated NK cells, we had LIT done, medicated cycles with prednisone, dexamethasone, intralipids, IVIG infusions, all in different combinations, got pregnant every time, lost all pregnancies...my body has turned into the perfect killer.... I am truly so happy for you, but also cried when I read your blog, cause it hit right home, and yet you are pregnant now, for me, it's still the pain and the agony. All of this happened to me in the last 2 years, it's been horrible. Thank you for your blog, it gives me new hope! Enjoy your pregnancy, it is truly a miracle!
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