Mother Nature

I had such a good time at my Birthday bash, well that was until the end of the evening when I went to the loo and I saw my wee was pink - I had forgotten that it is almost time for the witch to rear her ugly head! But it made me think again about my want and need to become a Mother. My maternal instinct is still as strong as ever. I have all this love inside of me that is completely different from the love I have for Hubby, family and friends. This love I have inside of me is so strong and is waiting to burst out. The only way I can describe its ferocity is, if my baby was a huge gorilla (which I sincerely hope it won't be in any way), I would be able to squeeze it in a hug so tight until I felt spent and all my love had been transferred.

Another Year Passes

Today is my Birthday and I am 39!

According to Dr. David Adamson, president of the American Society for Reproductive Medicine "The average 39-year-old woman has half the fertility she had at 31, and between 39 and 42, the chances of conceiving drop by half again". Oh, something to look forward to then!

On the positive side, I am only one year off having the option of having 3 embryos put back:

http://www.hfea.gov.uk/ivf-embryo-transfer.html - "If you are 40 or over, a maximum of three embryos can be used"

No matter how old I am when I have my baby(s) I will still be young at heart and try my best to be a fun Yummy Mummy!

Update

So the boring bit of the cycle is out of the way and my body has had a few weeks to adjust to the new pills. I decided to poas from CD11 and sure enough I had to keep going for 8 days and finally those two darks lines showed up on the cheap test stick yesterday - let the baby making begin!


As for the DHEA, let's recap some of the positives from taking it: 

• Improved overall feeling - I am a lot more positive these days, does that count?
• Physically stronger - I've not been at the weights to test this.
• Improved sex drive - still waiting and praying for this one to kick in!
• Mentally sharper and Better memory - I can't remember if this has happened!

And let's recap on some of the possible side effects :

• Fine facial hair - could someone please tell me if my moustache is any worse?
• A slight deepening of voice - no Adam's Apple growing!
• Acne, particularly on the back - not on the back but spots along my hairline which could remain hidden by my fringe if I didn't pick them! 
• Perspiration- I'm no Sweaty Betty!
• Hair thinning/loss - in the last couple of days I have noticed more hair loss when combing, so I'm going to keep an eye on that but like Hubby says " better to be bald and pregnant" !!!

The main thing is my sleep, the Melatonin helps me to sleep heavily for the first part, so until about 4.30am but then it is a battle to get back to sleep and remain so. It is a very restless night with loads of dreams - none of them good! But strangely I don't go around feeling knackered all day?

But there is a positive in all this - the pills I bought from an online store in the USA are actually the real deal!