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For five years I went through hell and back to become a Mummy! I had three miscarriages from natural pregnancies, five IUI attempts, five IVF attempts, and three operations to remove endometriosis, a polyp and a fibroid. I have been with my 'almost perfect' Husband since 2003. We married in 2009 on Valentine's Day and we are extremely happy together. I decided to start a blog because I needed to write down my thoughts and feelings to show myself and others how I was never going to give up until we got our forever baby.

Since having my baby, I'm inspired to create: Baby Blankets by Me & Mum

Thursday, 18 January 2018

2018 update!

In 2016 a week before my 44th Birthday I had a panic and sat hubby down and said either we have another try or accept that we are a family of three. As happy as we were to have Isaac in our lives, we had been trying naturally since his birth and had also used clomid and femara. Hubby said we could have one more try and while I was dithering he booked our flights to Greece to go back to the clinic!
We were so lucky because somehow everything worked out for us - hubby's time off work, someone to watch Isaac for a few days twice, finding a clinic locally near home to have bloods and scans done, and even my cycle timings!
Our first trip to the clinic resulted in me only having a scan, I didn't need an aquascan or hysteroscopy as my uterus and lining were all good. Another good surprise was that they still had one of hubby's sperm samples frozen from 4 years previously, so after fresh blood tests his participation in this cycle was complete! I had fresh bloods done, we collected a multitude of medication and instructions, and we were good to go the very next cycle!
After meds, scans and bloods back home the next trip to Greece was me by myself! Everything went well and it was exciting watching the screen and seeing two hopefuls being put back (although it was a bit painful and that worried me in case it wasn't meant to be).
It was all worth it because one of those hopefuls made it and on the 4th July 2017, a day late, Albert was born!

Wednesday, 24 April 2013

Our Son's Birth Story!

At 41 weeks I said to Hubby that the pressure today felt different but I wasn't sure whether it was wishful thinking. That evening I started getting period type pains again but when we went to bed around 9pm I noticed that they weren't a constant ache but regular, timable contractions, 8 minutes apart lasting 45 seconds! I told Hubby and tried to convince him to go to sleep saying that I would let him know if I needed him or if there were any major developments but he was too excited! I tried to go to sleep myself as is advised but I don't know how anyone does it - you relax and every so many minutes you get a rude awakening!

The midwife had said to ring the hospital when the contractions were 5 minutes apart lasting a minute. Mine were soon 5 minutes apart but still not lasting a minute. They were getting quite painful so I asked Hubby to put the Tens machine on me and it did help, I only used this and breathing techniques for nearly the whole labour. I had my breakfast and went back to bed even though I couldn't sleep. Hubby was downstairs when I rang him from upstairs at 6.30am because I felt a pop and my waters had gone and I didn't want to move incase they went everywhere but surprisingly they were more of a trickle. Hubby helped me to the bathroom and we discussed whether or not to ring the hospital but decided we should because I noticed a green colour to the waters and was worried in case the baby had pooed in the uterus which could be a sign of distress. We rang the hospital at 7am and they asked a few questions to try and establish whether I needed to go in yet. One of the questions was whether I had the Tens machine on the highest setting yet - which I never did for the whole labour! They advised to have a bath, eat and wait until the contractions were longer.

Hubby ran me a bath but as soon as I lay down in it I had a strong contraction and practically screamed at him to get me out - that was the end of our waterbirth dream!

I was still concerned with the colour of the water I was leaking and the fact that the pain was much worse now, and I insisted that Hubby rang the hospital back and we were told to go in. Upon leaving the house the neighbour across the road spotted us and was asking if this was it - I was trying to get in the car and look 'normal'! Also, nearly every light was red and at one set a lady on a bicycle next to our car was staring in while I writhed in pain!

We arrived at the hospital at 8.15am and even though it's not far to the labour ward I struggled and had to keep stopping with the contractions. The midwives allocated me a room and the one who would be looking after me introduced herself. When she did the first examination at 8.30am we were all pleased to find out that I was already 4-5cm dilated. I was hooked up to a monitor so they could keep an eye on the baby's heartbeat, unfortunately it also shows the contractions building and peaking and I ended up watching this and getting more upset.

The midwife said she would examine me again in 4 hours but the pains were too much and I asked to be checked at 11.15am and I had progressed to 7-8cm! The midwife explained that there are a couple of points or transitional periods where you think you can't go on but you are close to the end. I was at one of  these points. Three hours later (2pm) they examined me again and I was at 9cm, just part of the cervix hadn't thinned - everyone was saying the end is in sight!


For nearly the whole of the labour I stood on one spot with all my weight in one leg. I couldn't be examined on the bed unless it was very quick and straight after a contraction. I found it hard to eat or drink anything and the midwife and Hubby were concerned as my urine samples showed had  ketones:

"Ketosis is a common outcome for women who experience a prolonged labour (or prelabour), becoming dehydrated and often causing their contractions to weaken, slow or stop. This can start to happen if glycogen (or glucose) is not being replenished through eating and drinking in their labour.
The work of labour means that the woman's body has high-energy needs, depleting her stores of available glycogen very quickly. When the body has excessive amounts of ketones (meaning the woman is 'ketotic'), she can feel very weak and lethargic, develop a fever and a have fast pulse. Her uterus does not contracting efficiently, and her labour slows (or stops)."


Hubby was practically force feeding me dextrose tablets, and the threat of the labour lasting even longer got me eating some sweets and drinking water and juice.

Two hours later I was still at 9cm as part of the cervix still hadn't thinned. They called a doctor and he examined me and found that the baby's head was asynclitic:


"Asynclitism means asymmetrical. Its when a baby’s head is tipped towards one shoulder. The tipped head has a harder time passing through the narrow part of the pelvis; the ishial spines. Labor becomes longer, and sometimes baby doesn't fit out the pelvis."

They decided that I needed to go on a drip to make the contractions more regular and slightly longer in the hope that the baby's head would turn and thin out the rest of the cervix. This really upset me as I was only just coping with the pain as it was and the thought of more pain, more often tipped me over the edge and so I asked for an epidural. The midwife went to speak to the anaesthetist but he was in theatre and they said he would be about 20 minutes but in reality he didn't get to me for an hour and 40 minutes, and in the meantime they started the drip. I had to take the Tens machine off while they did the epidural and it took a little while to complete but when it was done - WOW, the relief!

They turned the drip right up but now I couldn't feel anything. An hour later they checked me again but there was no change. It was getting late and they didn't want to wait any longer to intervene and so they said I would need a C-section. I was so scared and regretted having watched so many TV programmes about childbirth! The staff were very reassuring and answered all my questions and double checked I couldn't feel anything before they started as I was being paranoid. I asked Hubby to look into my eyes and kiss me as a distraction. It was over so fast - I didn't even know they had started! They asked Hubby if he was squeamish and he isn't and so he was allowed to look over the curtain and he saw our son's head sticking out of the incision and then the surgeons pulling on it and lifting our baby out of me. Hubby said "it's a boy" and we heard him cry. Isaac's head was born at 22:48 and the rest of him at 22:49. He was wrapped in towels and given to his Daddy who showed him to me. He weighed 7lbs4oz.



We were taken to recovery and our son was passed to me and put on my chest so we could have skin-to-skin bonding and I started breast feeding. It all seemed surreal but wonderful - we had done it, we are a family, we have our happy ending!


Tuesday, 23 April 2013

41 Weeks - One week overdue with an eviction notice!

So Baby has decided to stay put. Hubby said to his Mum on the phone - it took us so long to get Baby in there and now we can't get Baby out!

Thursday evening I had period pain type aches most of the night and so thought that there might have been some progress but when I saw the consultant on Friday and he attempted a sweep, there was no change! So I am seeing the midwife tomorrow at 41weeks1day for a third attempt at a sweep and then we have the rest of the week for Baby to make a move or on 30th April at 10am we will be going to hospital to start the induction process. Baby has to come out!

 

 
41 Week Bump

Tuesday, 16 April 2013

40 Weeks - Due Date!

Can you believe it - we've done a full pregnancy!
I've put on 1 stone 5lbs and luckily it's all bump!

 
  
40 Weeks Bump pic

Still feeling fine and have no signs that baby is coming. I went to the midwife yesterday and I may have a UTI, I have to ring for the results Friday. They also offered me a sweep and I was torn as to whether to have one or not. I really want my body to do what it's meant to do when it's ready, however I really don't want to be induced and really want a water birth. So I decided to try the sweep. It was very uncomfortable and I was glad when she stopped. My cervix is very posterior and long still and she couldn't do the sweep. At least we know that conditions are not favourable for labour at the moment but I don't know whether I'll try a sweep again in a hurry!

So I don't mind waiting a bit longer for Baby after all this time. We're so excited though - like kids at Christmas!

Tuesday, 9 April 2013

39 Weeks!

Wow - I really thought I would have Baby early for some reason and yet here we are at 39 weeks, just one week away from baby's due date. We've been going for walks and I've been bouncing on my birth ball. I get lots of tightenings but no pains yet!

I've been getting quite worried for no reason, it just seems the longer we wait the more I find it hard to believe that we will soon be bringing a baby home. I'm not nervous or worried about labour - it's just that after all we have been through I find it difficult to accept that we will finally be parents and get our happy ending. I'm not being negative and I know it's irrational, in fact it's hard to explain. We're so excited and just impatient!

  

 
38 Week Bump

 

 
39 Week Bump

We saw the midwife yesterday and Baby's head is 3/5ths engaged and Baby is in an ideal position for birth, this does not indicate that Baby will come soon though. We see the midwife next Monday for our full-term appointment, and then we're back to the consultant a week Friday for our 41weeks appointment - probably to discuss induction!

We're really hoping that we don't make it to either of these appointments! Come on Baby!

Wednesday, 27 March 2013

37 Weeks - Full Term/ Fully Baked!

At 37 weeks my pregnancy is considered full term - how wonderful to have made it this far!

 

 
37 weeks bump pics


I've finally completed a birth plan - I'm sure there is stuff that I've forgotten but what is important to us is on there:


Birth Plan
·              I would like to use a birthing pool if available
·              I would like the room to be as quiet as possible with the lights dimmed
·              Please don't offer me pain medication, I'll request it if I need it
·              I would like to touch my baby's head as it crowns and view it using a mirror if possible 
·              I would like to labour down until the urge to push is felt and I would appreciate firm advice and guidance at this time to guard against too quick a delivery giving the perineum time to fan out thus (hopefully) preventing a tear
·              I would like to give birth without an episiotomy
·              I would like my Husband to be in the pool and help "catch" our baby, and he is to tell me what sex the baby is if I don’t see for myself 
·              I would like to wait until the umbilical cord stops pulsating before it's clamped and cut by my Husband
·              I would like to hold my baby right away and have our skin-to-skin “Golden Hour”, putting off any procedures that aren't urgent. If I can’t do this my Husband will
·              I would like to deliver the placenta spontaneously and without assistance
·              I would like to breastfeed as soon as possible and want our baby to be breastfed only please: no bottles, pacifiers, artificial nipples, formula, or water
·              I would like our newborn to stay with us at all times, and can all physical exams and procedure be done in the room with us
·              The baby can have the Vitamin K injection
·              I would like a side room if one is free when moved from the labour ward, we are willing to pay for this

I have also finished packing the Baby's hospital bag at last! So all we need now is the baby! No signs yet and my bump hasn't dropped so we could be in for the long haul! I'm not fed up of being pregnant, in fact I'm loving the baby moving and feeling the feet so clearly at the moment but I am feeling impatient with excitement. I've only been on maternity leave a couple of days though and I'm bored! I have been doing a bit of housework and finishing off preparing for Baby's arrival - oh and a bit of resting! So whenever you're ready Baby D - we are!

Tuesday, 19 March 2013

Baby Shower #2 - 36 Weeks

So I had a second baby shower at home for my friends and a few neighbours and it was lovely to chat to them all and show them the nursery. Luckily my Mum came to stay and her and Hubby helped me get everything ready and tidy in time. I got some lovely presents for me and the Baby - we're very lucky!
One of my friends had special cakes made:


So here I am at 36 weeks:



I only have 3 days left at work. I know I will miss it at first and be bored so I have started making a list of what I need to do before Baby arrives. I also know that it is time to finish as I am quite uncomfortable now - I have a permanently stuffy nose and that doesn't help my breathlessness, my bump is tight quite a lot of the time and I have started getting period like pains every now and then. Plus my groin and hips have started to ache - must be all this baby weight as I have put on 1 stone 4 pounds now!

I have packed my hospital bag and there is one for Hubby but I still haven't packed Baby's bag - we have so many lovely things for him/her that I can't decide and want to pack most of the wardrobe!!

I am still seeing the consultant but don't need any more scans now as they are happy with Baby's growth and position, which is great. I did have a gestational diabetes test as I had sugar in my urine sample at the last two  appointments but it came back all clear which means I can stuff myself with Easter Eggs!

I'm so excited and feel ready for Baby to come whenever they feel ready now!