Progress!

9w1d

Today is my 40th Birthday and this afternoon the nausea started to ease! Bring on the cake!

9w3d (moved forward to 9w5d)

I went for a scan today and I got a great picture:

Baby was asleep so the Professor gently poked my tummy and said 'wake up' and suddenly the baby started wriggling, moving arms, legs and head - it was amazing! Baby is actually measuring ahead, so from today I'm going by the scan measurements until they tell me any different at the 12 week dating scan.
I still have fluid in my uterus but they don't think it is blood but I'm not to lift anything, still can't exercise, no sex, and I have to take it easy. I'm going back to work though otherwise I'll die of boredom but I will be sensible! Next scan in two weeks.

We told Hubby's brother and wife today, and my Mum told my youngest brother because he is away for the weekend and we're telling everyone else tomorrow and wanted him to know too. I was quite emotional about telling them but also nervous about everyone knowing. It hits us a bit more each day that we are pregnant and that we are doing well!

9w6d

We used the doppler this morning and found the heartbeat straight away - what a great start to the day! Today was my Bithday party and we told our family and friends, it was so exciting and such a happy, happy occasion!

Emergency Scan

8w6d

So the Prof was able to fit us in for a scan at 1pm so I took the day off work and Hubby was off so he was able to come with me. He tried with the doppler before we went and again it took nearly 30minutes but he found it, so that was a big relief and prepared us better for the scan.

The Prof had trouble finding the heartbeat at first but we didn't panic knowing that we had heard it only a few hours before. She eventually got a great picture and the baby had grown since Friday and we could even see a faint outline of the spine. The baby was moving around again but she managed to measure it 9w1d!
There was no paper in the printer so no picture again, so on Friday I must get a picture ready to show people on Saturday - we are telling everyone at my Birthday party!

The Prof said I need to take it easy and rest so I am off work for the rest of the week.

Scare!

8w3d

Friday evening after the scan I went to the loo and there was the dreaded spotting, it was brown which normally means old blood. I decided to go to bed early and read and try and ignore it but I put a panty liner on to keep a check on how much there is. About 2 hours later I turned over in bed and felt a gush and ran to the loo and the panty liner was soaked in pink watery stuff. I put on a proper sanitary towel and waited for Hubby to get home. Shortly after telling him, I felt wet again and when I checked I had some red bleeding. My abdomen felt tender and I didn't feel very well.

Earlier in the day before the scan I had a stabbing pain in one particular spot and before the bleed I had it again. This one thing gave me hope because it seemed to be isolated. Also apart from a few more drips when I went the loo, the red bleeding had stopped by the next day.

8w4d

After a terrible nights sleep Hubby and I decided to try the doppler again. He tried for 25minutes and eventually he found it! We were so relieved!

We didn't got to A&E or anything because it was a weekend and we know from past experiences that there isn't much they can do for you at the weekend and we definitely wouldn't get a scan.

First Midwife Appointment

8w5d

The midwife was really nice and I was so excited to get my Maternity Green Notes which I am meant to carry round with me everywhere. She also said to let her know if I couldn't get a scan off the Prof tomorrow and she would try and arrange one.

I got lots of information about all sorts of things such as eating your 5 a day, getting the flu jab, and some pregnancy classes.

Fourth Scan

8 weeks

Loads of negative thoughts creeping in and I feel nervous and a bit panicky. I think this is because it was the 8 week scan when we found out it was all over last time.
Weighed myself and I haven't put a lot on which is good, have lost tone and look a bit bloated more than anything. We tried to find the baby's heartbeat with the fetal doppler I bought last time but it is probably still too early.

8w1d

Nausea has got slightly worse which you have to look at positively as a good sign even though I feel poo all the time. The only thing that works is being distracted such as at work, in the shower and swimming.
Chocolate milkshake is my latest thing to help, along with blackcurrent juice, dried strawberries, lollyices and of course chips!

8w3d
Hubby found the heartbeat with the doppler! He tried for ages and eventually we found it quite faint just behind my beat. You can tell the difference because it's so much faster. We were so happy!
By myself for the scan as usual but I felt ok knowing we had heard the heartbeat. The scan was great, the baby looks more like a baby and has a big head and little body and still has marshmellowy limbs. The amazing thing was that from 8weeks it starts to move and while I was being scanned it waved its marshmellow arm at me! I was in a different room today and there was no printer so no picture.

I let Mum tell my Aunty about the pregnancy because she is very ill and I hoped it would cheer her up plus Mum is fit to burst with excitement and needed to tell someone!

Third Scan

7weeks

My pregnant friend recommended bar extenders which have been a Godsend because my bras fit but are tight round my back and too uncomfortable with the bloating.

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Bra-Strap-Extenders-x6-2xBlack/dp/B002TI0I5S/ref=sr_1_4?ie=UTF8&qid=1347982015&sr=8-4

7w3d

Have been sleeping on high pillows which help with the food stuck high up in my stomach.
Had to goto the scan by myself again today. I have external scans now because I am thin enough and the baby is big enough to see. The baby measured 7w4d and had a strong heartbeat. It is at what I call the marshmellow stage because the limbs are just square looking like marshmellows.

Went for a swim afterwards and I was swimming along nearly crying with happiness and listening to a song that expresses how I feel - "Happy to see you, setting me off like sparks, you ignite all the colours inside my heart"

Second Scan

6weeks
Still having weird dreams, still got food stuck in my gut, still bloated, still got big boobs, still got nausea, and I'm grinding my teeth because of it, still got wind, still pregnant!

6w1d
Started back at swimming, I am determined to stay fit and healthy plus it will help my digestion.
Cannot go near the fridge, luckily I have such a good Hubby who cooks for me!

6w2d
I have to get up and have a big drink and my breakfast quite soon because of the nausea and hunger pangs!
Went for a swim again which is a good job as I ate a load of chocolate today - far more than I would ever eat in one sitting!

6w3d
Went for a swim again which hopefully will offset the portion of chips I had for lunch!
I had to goto the scan by myself as Hubby was working. I was fine about it, the worst part is the beginning of the scan when the Prof takes a few seconds to find the baby. He said more or less straight away "what a difference a week makes" and showed me the screen. I could see the yolk sac, fetal pole and the heartbeat clearly! Baby measured 6w2d.

Telling the Parents

5weeks3days

Got really excited as Mum arrived by train and I told her she would have to come with us to the clinic because I was going to ask for more Femara.  Really we were going to have our first scan!

The Professor scanned me and said very quickly "you're definitely pregnant and it is in the perfect place". On the screen we saw the sac, yolk sac and fetal pole:

The Prof looked at my ovaries and said that I have ovulated from my left ovary which was a big surprise because of my blocked left tube!

In the waiting room I gave Mum the scan picture and said "Look at that!" and she asked what it was and I said a baby! She was really shocked and started crying and asked if I had known!

5w4d

We all went to visit Hubbys parents. We had to wait all day to tell them because Hubby's Sister was there and also Hubby's Niece and Nephew were staying and we needed to wait until they went to bed. During the day everyone was having a drink and so I pretended to have a glass of wine but Hubby and Mum drank it when no one was looking.

At the dinner table when we were finally all sat down, Hubby asked me to stand up and said to his parents "How many people do you see standing there?" (He got this idea from Only Fools and Horses). His parents didn't understand what he was going on about so he told them I was pregnant so there is two! They were very happy for us!

5w5d

Hubby told his Grandad over the phone because he doesn't live near. We know he won't tell any one else. He is very happy for us and asks about us every day!

So the plan is to tell everyone else at my 40th Birthday meal September 22nd when I will be nearly 10 weeks!

The first pregnancy week

14DPO

I was really hot again last night and had to go to the loo a few time in the night. In the end I got up about 5.30am as I was wide awake and hungry!

We went on holiday and  I was impressed that during our 4 hour drive I managed to hold on for the loo until we arrived! However, I did then proceed to have the longest wee in the world! 

Boobs feel even bigger and hard today!

Got a bit stressed as I already have 4 mozzie bites driving me mad!

15DPO

Today after dinner the 'food sitting high in my stomach making me feel majorly uncomfortable' started and would last into my 10th week.

16DPO

Really bloated after food and it's repeating on me! Also have wind - embarrassing!

17DPO

Bought a pregnancy test whilst on holiday and then started worrying myself thinking I was perfectly happy and feeling very pregnant so why do a test? What if the test is blank or lighter than the last?

Anyway the test was very positive!

18DPO / 4weeks4days

Still having little panic moments when I goto the loo in case the dreading spotting starts. But I am relaxing more each day and telling myself not to be silly!

19DPO / 4w5d

Tiny bit of nausea after breakfast again!

Hubby and I had a good talk about all our fears and all the different stages we hope to reach, and also how we're going to tell our parents. For once we haven't told anyone yet!

20DPO / 4w6d

Been dreaming loads - not particularly good dreams. I'm hot at night and sweaty!

I've had a few twinges today that I've tried not to worry about. Now instead of repeating the baby names over and over, I sing this:

I love been looking at my pregnancy test all the time, seeing the two dark lines!

5 weeks

Did a digital test again today and got what I was hoping for:

Femara & TTC Naturally Round 2 = BFP!

At 9.30pm on 12th August at 12DPO I peed on  a Superdrug test and passed it to my Hubby. I proceeded to get ready for bed and left him to read the result.

Hubby: I took the test into the 'nursery' and watched hopefully as the pink pigment moved along the test. After only 30 seconds a very faint pink line was visible and it started to get darker and darker. I was filming the test with my video camera and I wanted to film Wifey's reaction but she was brushing her teeth, so I waited patiently staring at the line in disbelief. After about 2 minutes I gave up waiting and walked back  into the bathroom showing Wifey the test while filming her.

Meanwhile, because Hubby was taking so long to tell me the result my brain was doing overtime thinking either it hasn't worked or he would have been back sooner, or he's just timing it and will be back when the 3 minutes is up. I could see his shadow and even the sticks shadow when I looked into the hallway. From the shadow I thought he was holding the test up to the light to try and see a line. So when he came into the bathroom I just put my toothbrush down and tried to figure out the test he was showing me - I couldn't believe it, we'd done it!

All day I had been saying our baby names over and over in my head because it keeps me positive!

So did I have an inkling that this month could be the positive cycle? Well from 5 or 6DPO I had slight 'dodgy stomach' pains and I thought it was from drinking diet coke. Also my boobs were very sore, more so than I can remember in a cycle for a while. I had one episode of food repeating on me which Hubby thought was a sure sign as I had that last time. Just before I found out I felt a bit nauseous and very tired. Also I hadn't been snappy, a normal PMT sign. The final thing was I was sort of hopeful after getting a faint line last cycle - it gave me a feeling that it was possible!

13DPO I felt my breathing was slightly more heavier and I felt slightly dizzy. I peed on a digital test and got Pregnant 2-3 weeks!

We were going on holiday the next day so we went to the doctors and I got more high dose folic acid and steroids and informed the midwife. I rang to book a scan with the Professor but they said that unfortunately she was off when I was supposed to have my 6week scan so I would have to wait until 7 weeks. I decided I couldn't wait that long so I emailed the prof myself and she said that her colleague would scan me when I was back off holiday.

So apart from feeling fat because of massive sore boobs and bloating, I wasn't panicking too much and just felt calm and extremely happy. 

Initial due date based on LMP (last menstrual period) 24th April 2013.